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Death & Numb Feelings

TW: THIS POST TALKS ABOUT DEATH AND EMOTIONS RELATED TO IT, WHICH MAYBE PROVOKING.  Today, I was watching an English show and the particular episode was about someone passing away. It reminded me of the time between 2020- till date and all the people I lost during this time period.  I also realized how during this whole hustle of battling corona and life I had actually not gotten the time to even mourn properly. We all lost so many people during Corona and we couldn't even be there with our loved ones because of the fear of the spreading virus. Adulting hit a little more when I also realized that due to college and being so far away I couldn't attend funerals of my loved ones.  I cried watching the episode today. It felt good to get a little weight off my chest because hearing about deaths during Covid made me so numb that I couldn't even cry. I know that becoming completely numb about feelings is not healthy, but I guess that's just how I became during Covid and its st...
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//Getting in Touch Again//

I have been sitting past half an hour in front of the screen with a blank document, trying to figure out how to start this. Past two days, I have been thinking about finally starting this. I was last active on this blog in 2020. It's been longer than I thought. I feel guilty on some days about how I've stopped writing now and I know Papa would certainly not agree with that and say, "If you were feeling that why didn't you write?". Well, now that's a tough one to answer. I'm lazy, yes. However, more than that once you lose a habit it's so difficult to get it back. The biggest fear is if I'll be able to write how I used to. Not that I was amazing at it earlier, but still.  In these two years, I completed school, struggled with the anxiety of applying in colleges, finally getting into one and then settling in a completely new place. I took admission in the design department of Maharaja Sayajirao University of Baroda, Faculty of Fine Arts. The design d...

HAPPY REPUBLIC DAY/ गणतंत्र दिवस की बधाई

We celebrate Republic Day on 26th January every year as a remembrance of our Constitution. The Constitution of India came into effect from 26th January, 1950 and made India a completely independent republic . We also celebrate the Constitution Day on 26th November because on 26th November 1949 we adopted our Constitution. The Constitution is also the supreme law of the land and none can violate the provisions of the Constitution. I wonder how difficult is it to understand the Indian Constitution because we have a Preamble to the Constitution which is the basic structure of the Constitution and which tells us the main aims and what is the Indian Constitution all about. Our ancestors, freedom fighters gave us this Constitution to have a definite and written set of laws/rules which would be followed throughout the years. The Constitution declares all the citizens as equal and cannot be discriminated on any ground. Being a political science student, I studied the Constitution, the arti...

AN OPEN LETTER TO MY PARENTS

Dear Mummy and Papa,      I saw a movie named 'Chichore' few days back. The movie showed how a boy couldn't clear his JEE ADVANCED examination and after seeing his result he attempted suicide as he thought that everyone would call him a 'loser' now. The fear of being called a 'loser' made him take a drastic step. His parents never forced him really for studying or getting number 1 rank, but he somehow, was under pressure. His parents were divorced, but they were in touch on a regular basis and they brought him up well. One night before the result, his father got him a wine bottle and said that they'll celebrate after his results when he'll clear the examination. When his parents received the tragic news that he jumped from the balcony and is in the hospital, they rushed. The boy's friend told his parents that he was saying before jumping that he is afraid now everyone will call him a 'loser'.       His parents broke down. The boy's co...

दिवाली साल में एक ही बार आती है

दिवाली साल में एक ही बार आती है और मुझे यह बात पता है। मुझे यह न बताएं। ज़िन्दगी भी एक ही बार मिलती है न? ये बताया है कभी किसी ने आपको? पृथ्वी एक ही है, यह बताया है किसी ने आपको? दिवाली मनाने से आपको किसी ने नहीं रोका है। बस इतनी सी विनती है कि पर्यावरण का ख्याल रख कर दिवाली मनाएं। जब मैंने अपने खुद के दोस्तों को दिवाली की शुभकामनाएं दीं और बोला कि इस दिवाली पटाखे नहीं, तो उनमें से कई ने मुझे जवाब दिया 'साल में एक ही बार तो आती है', 'एक दिन से क्या हो जाएगा?' एक दिन से बहुत कुछ हो जाता है। आज अगर हमने इस बात का ध्यान नहीं दिया तो अगले 20 साल के अंदर हम सब ऑक्सीजन मास्क्स लगाकर घूम रहे होंगे।  सच कहूं तो मुझे बहुत गुस्सा आता है जब मैं लोगों के ऐसे जवाब सुनती हूँ। एक को तो जब मैन ये सब बोला तो उसने मुझे जवाब दिया 'tum mature hogyi hogi toh ni jalati, jab hum mature ho jayenge hum bhi chor denge' ऑक्सीजन मास्क्स वाली बात पर बोला 'let them die'। शर्म आती है ऐसे लोगों से मुझे रिश्ता रखने में भी। लोगों का ये भी जवाब रहता है कि भारत में हमेशा से ऐसे ही दिवाली मन...

Was The Indian Constitution Made Only For Studying In Schools?

I ask you all this, “Was the Indian Constitution made only for studying in schools?” I ask this because from what I am seeing in newspapers and on the news channels, I feel the answer is ‘yes’.  Our Indian Constitution gives us six fundamental rights. 1.        The Right of Equality (Art. 14-18) 2.        The Right of Freedom (Art. 19-22) 3.        The Right against Exploitation (Art. 23-24) 4.        The Right to Freedom of Religion (Art. 25-28) 5.        Cultural and Educational Rights (Art. 29-30) 6.        Right to Constitutional Remedies(Art. 32) Now, do we actually practice these? No, we don’t.  Right of Equality Apparently, according to this right we cannot discriminate on the grounds of religion, caste, creed, sex, place of birth, etc. But why then, despite the...

"REBEL WOMEN DESERVE TO GET RAPED"

Hello. Adab. Namaste. So... I was scrolling through my instagram feed and going through my friends' stories. I saw an IGTV Video continuously being shared on everyone's stories. I was wondering what is it. I clicked it and opened the video. The title of the video said "REBEL WOMEN DESERVE TO GET RAPED", which made me quite curious to see what was it all about. The video was uploaded by a girl named Shivani Gupta. She was visiting a restaurant with her friends where a lady commented on her that if she's wearing a dress, men will ofcourse rape her. I have no words to say after watching that video. I really don't understand the fact that how can women say something like this for other women. After watching the video, some people may tell me or think that if someone has such a thinking then obviously its wrong, but what can we do. There's nothing to make such a havoc out of it. But my dear friends, I would like to say that unless you dont speak up, unless ...