TW: THIS POST TALKS ABOUT DEATH AND EMOTIONS RELATED TO IT, WHICH MAYBE PROVOKING. Today, I was watching an English show and the particular episode was about someone passing away. It reminded me of the time between 2020- till date and all the people I lost during this time period. I also realized how during this whole hustle of battling corona and life I had actually not gotten the time to even mourn properly. We all lost so many people during Corona and we couldn't even be there with our loved ones because of the fear of the spreading virus. Adulting hit a little more when I also realized that due to college and being so far away I couldn't attend funerals of my loved ones. I cried watching the episode today. It felt good to get a little weight off my chest because hearing about deaths during Covid made me so numb that I couldn't even cry. I know that becoming completely numb about feelings is not healthy, but I guess that's just how I became during Covid and its st...
I have been sitting past half an hour in front of the screen with a blank document, trying to figure out how to start this. Past two days, I have been thinking about finally starting this. I was last active on this blog in 2020. It's been longer than I thought. I feel guilty on some days about how I've stopped writing now and I know Papa would certainly not agree with that and say, "If you were feeling that why didn't you write?". Well, now that's a tough one to answer. I'm lazy, yes. However, more than that once you lose a habit it's so difficult to get it back. The biggest fear is if I'll be able to write how I used to. Not that I was amazing at it earlier, but still. In these two years, I completed school, struggled with the anxiety of applying in colleges, finally getting into one and then settling in a completely new place. I took admission in the design department of Maharaja Sayajirao University of Baroda, Faculty of Fine Arts. The design d...